It's called Insomnia
Every night, I just lie awake in my bed,
Wondering about all the pain that I’ve spread,
Sometimes I don’t really know why I’m alive,
Or if my life is just another fucking test drive,
I know I have my life laid out right in front of me,
But I just can’t follow it, cuz something is wrong with me,
I would love for everyone to know how I feel,
Cuz sometimes I don’t feel like anything is real,
But I just can’t tell anyone about my pain,
And I’ve started doing drugs now, I’m melting my brain,
Okay fuck it, here it goes, I’ll tell you what’s wrong,
So listen up, even though it’s not very long,
I got bullied in school and I had no friends,
That really took its toll on me, it’s there ‘till the end,
Then I started doing really badly in school,
And then I thought that I would finally be cool,
Now I’m fucked up, I’m stuck in a loop,
Even though I have been able to regroup,
I’ve switched school twice and my parents hate me,
They sent me to boarding school, cuz dad is a pussy,
My parents drink too much, and that’s my fault,
But that’s an excuse that they use as default,
Everything they do is because of me,
But that’s not the case, from what I have seen,
They just don’t know how to use their money right,
They spend it all with the speed of light.
And they blame me for all their fucking shit,
But it’s not, not even a little bit!
